Disappointment.

Why are we disappointed? Because we expect too much. Why do we expect too much? Because we are humans and human beings are selfish. Only selfish? Nope, human beings are cruel and heartless too. We don't appreciate what we have. How pathetic. I guess I am pathetic too. I am not capable of being satisfied. I need more. I have high expectations from the people I am related to. I am a selfish person who doesn't want to settle down for anything less than what I expected and my expectations aren't reality. Reality is a pathetic world and It doesn't need me. All these made me distance myself from everyone around me. I live in a dream world where I wait for prince charming to come on a white horse but I'm pretty sure he lost his way. I don't think he's coming any soon but this world is too bright and doesn't seem to need a prince, which is nice. I don't see people crying for every little thing. I see people are perfect and know how to behave around me. I see that I look perfect too. I stay in this world of fantasy. Why? Because no one has been able to pull me out of it. No one has said that you can expect stuff from them too. No one told me that I could be selfish because he was too and that it was okay. No one told me that they realize that its just being practical and straight forward but not cruel and yet they accept it. I couldn't find the type of people I wanted and I am disappointed every second. But I chose to stay stubborn and wait. Wait for someone who can me wanna change my thinking. Make me want to believe that reality is beautiful too. I can't meet any person and learn to love them, but if someone is capable of making me do that I don't mind. I'll be waiting for someone stronger and wiser. Someone who can guide me out of my dreamland to show me one where others too exist. I only find disappointment now because I am expecting too much. And I am not going to change. Why? because I don't want to meet people who introduce me to moments which barely last for few minutes. I don't want to meet people who aren't strong enough to be able to pull me out of this well I've dug myself. I don't want them to pull me up to push me down again. Till I meet the right people, I'm waiting in this world and trying to make myself happy. Yeah, I am going to be happy but will this be okay? I don't know but I want to find out. 

Happy minutes of the day were being able to laze around reading manga. I can sit and cry because of these stories. T_T why are they so perfect?. Yep, I love anime. I love Manga. I love these stories. Yeah I guess that's one more reason you are disappointed with reality. These dreamy stories always have more to offer. I know this is stupid and pathetic but I guess that's the way I am. I'll just be waiting. So yeah, did you know beautiful japanese manga is? Feeeeeelllllsss. Kiilllinnggg meeee.