Being a teenager is confusing.Everyday from the second we wake up to the second we go to bed, we are pushing ourselves ahead. You have to balance your social life, along with the internet addiction and not to the mention school and family issues. The clock just keeps on going ahead too, It won't give a break. Yeah, not that I actually needed to state that but what I meant to say is that time is always going on ahead and so are we. I try to be ignorant of the rising sun and the light fading away but I don't know. It just doesn't go the way I want to. Though the sun is up I try to still stay cosy and cuddled in my bed but who doesn't have that annoying best friend who starts calling you early in the morning and won't shut up till you wake up. Just so you know, I'm kinda the friend who wouldn't shut up until I finish what I have to say and get a satisfying reaction. Such a person finding another person like her but at a complete different range is a miracle which makes me avoiding such a person pointless. I try to turn the clocks hand back to 9 pm but my loving mother adjusts it back to 7 am and the alarm goes of *Trrriiinnnngggggggggg*. I declare that I'm not going to study and just paint out my feelings only to have my angel like dad come and support me to pursue a career in that field. I put my head down and ignore what's being taught in the class but the teacher turns out to be more considerate about my mood and is willing to teach me whenever we have a free class. I bunk school and they declare its a holiday. What am I actually rebelling against? Why am I even doing that? Rebelling has sure been a pain for me. When I try to rebel and look cool it never works out but when I try to work out things with my family or whatever, I suddenly become this heartless rebellion in their eyes. It's not that I'm getting all tattoos and piercings done and roaming on the roads. I'm a 11th grader staying in India for god's sake!
I just realised, maybe it's because of the "being a cool teenager" feel or whatever. I was all along against the wrong person. I was being against me. I shouldn't rebel, I should challenge myself. Not to be someone artificially cool but someone who gets better every day and trust me, that is cool. Not only that, you even get to say "Challenge accepted!" like Barney. Yep! I'm a fan of "How I met your mother"show but was totally disappointed with the ending, don't you think so too? well, never mind. You don't rebel against yourself and force yourself to be cool. You do whatever you love and give a personal definition to the word,"teenager". You wake up and push yourself ahead, not only in time but also ahead of yourself. To be a someone better than the person you were yesterday and to create a person you've dreamt of.
Happy minutes of the day were doing what I'm good at and actually feeling proud of myself. Have a long way to go though but you know what you are doing.
Yes, I paint. Yes, I love batman :'D but then I love joker too :O. I don't know. I love painting for now. Yeah I love clarity too, and I crave for it.
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